It definitely affects my mental state. If it was just physical, I'd be able to work (at least a bit). But I have real trouble concentrating, and am disproportionately worse at abstract mathsy/logical stuff (ie, my job) There's a general mental fuzziness, rather like I feel at 4am with insomnia: not always unable to do stuff, but not thinking 100% clearly, and prone to errors of judgement. Also I get eyestrain and headache, which doesn't help.
I find my mental and physical energies are like two different gauges, and they go up and down fairly independently as long as I don't go into the danger zone. Once I push myself too hard, I feel worse on both fronts, though it affects me more on the one I overtaxed. So yes, if I force myself to think too much I lose physical energy as well in the resulting relapse.
And has the experience of CFS in any way changed your intellectual processes? Unfortunately, answering this question requires concentration :/ Um...I dunno. I guess I've gotten better at letting my subconscious do more of the work, giving it things to ponder and get back to me on (often in an unexpected long lj rant :)) Since I think slower and have worse judgement, I tend to decide what I think on things in advance and stick to that rather than making decisions/reacting on the fly. I worry that this makes my real life conversations a bit repetitive and out of sync with the person I'm talking to (I can think about online stuff at my own pace)
And now I am out of brains for this reply, so shall stop :) *goes to passively surf the internet to build up mental energy*
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I find my mental and physical energies are like two different gauges, and they go up and down fairly independently as long as I don't go into the danger zone. Once I push myself too hard, I feel worse on both fronts, though it affects me more on the one I overtaxed. So yes, if I force myself to think too much I lose physical energy as well in the resulting relapse.
And has the experience of CFS in any way changed your intellectual processes?
Unfortunately, answering this question requires concentration :/ Um...I dunno. I guess I've gotten better at letting my subconscious do more of the work, giving it things to ponder and get back to me on (often in an unexpected long lj rant :)) Since I think slower and have worse judgement, I tend to decide what I think on things in advance and stick to that rather than making decisions/reacting on the fly. I worry that this makes my real life conversations a bit repetitive and out of sync with the person I'm talking to (I can think about online stuff at my own pace)
And now I am out of brains for this reply, so shall stop :) *goes to passively surf the internet to build up mental energy*