sqbr: me pointing to a hat with neon sign saying Mod on it. (mod hat)
Sunday, September 22nd, 2019 08:23 pm
This is my Serious Business journal. Are you perhaps looking for my fannish/personal journal [personal profile] alias_sqbr?

My old comment policy, I don't care about this as intensely as I used to but it gives some idea of how I'd like people to interact here.

Absolutely anyone is welcome to read/subscribe, and noone is under any obligation to give me access.

This is the stuff I assume you know about me.
sqbr: pretty purple pi (Default)
Tuesday, August 15th, 2017 02:58 pm
(this started out as a reply to this tumblr post)

When I first started posting about social justice online, on my fannish livejournal, I posted about racism a LOT, with lots of self righteous LET ME EXPLAIN A THING. And then two of my non-white(*) friends said it was ruining my blog for them: one because she felt like I was speaking over her experiences, which didn’t match the monolithic How POC Feel Narrative I was ‘explaining’, the other because it was causing my clueless white friends to say racist crap in the comments. I had to fight back a defensive “But DON’T YOU WANT ME TO FIGHT RACISM??” reaction.

Ten years later and I’m still trying to figure out how to discuss racism in ways that actually help fight racism, and make the spaces I control supportive of POC/non-white people, rather than simply making the loudest possible noise about how it’s REALLY BAD YOU GUYS.
Read more... )
sqbr: pretty purple pi (Default)
Monday, November 10th, 2014 09:54 pm
This morning I had a moment of perfect clarity. I felt a strength of purpose and certainty in the importance of speaking publically on a complex issue that I haven't felt much in the last few years.

And then this evening I had a second moment of perfect clarity. That thought was "this is fucked up." And realised that the state I'm in now, and haven't been in for several years, is unmedicated.


My apologies to anyone who was hurt by the now locked post, which I am going to ignore for a while until I feel able to approach it with at least a modicum of rationality. Also apologies for blarging my personal issues on you all, but I felt like an explanation was neccesary and couldn't think of a less mortifying way to explain things. Now if you'll excuse me I'm going to go play computer games for a while and try not to die of /o\
sqbr: A stick figure doing cartwheels saying "Yay" (yay!)
Friday, June 21st, 2013 01:16 pm
Thank you! I really appreciate it!

I always feel really grateful and surprised when this sort of thing happens, and then am like "Does this mean I have minions I can get to buy me stuff? Am I somehow pressuring people to buy me stuff? AM I THE NEXT CASSANDRA CLAIRE??" But mostly I'm just happy :)
sqbr: (cake)
Monday, June 4th, 2012 11:03 am
So I'm going to do a mass unsubscribing of various people EVEN THOUGH I LIKE THEM ALL just to keep my dw list a bit more manageable. Please don't take it personally, if I didn't like you I wouldn't have subscribed in the first place, and you're all still quite welcome in my comments etc. I'll almost certainly pop in and check your journals from time to time.

(Man this sort of thing is awkward. This whole actively-controlling-my-social-experience-instead-of-being-passive thing is hard!)
sqbr: Rose and the doctor (dw?)
Thursday, August 11th, 2011 02:31 pm
Yvi is asking for suggestions about a non-English language fest on Dreamwidth for people who don't speak English as a native language (including people who learn their culture's language later in life, but not someone like me who learnt a second language at school because it sounded like fun)

I think it sounds like a cool idea, and would be happy enough not posting for a day if that would help. I am wondering if people would prefer comments in English, my dodgy German (as appropriate), or machine translated, or if it would be better for me not to comment at all.

Es ist vielleicht besser fuer alles dass ich werde nicht eine ganz Post auf Deutsch zu schrieben :)
sqbr: Darkwing Duck in red (dw!)
Monday, October 25th, 2010 03:42 am
Having issues connecting to dreamwidth again, I may be very slow with comments etc. Is anyone else having problems or is it still just me?
sqbr: Darkwing Duck in red (dw!)
Sunday, July 11th, 2010 03:30 pm
I'm going to mess about with my access filters a bit, is there an easy way to see all my locked posts at once? I'm SURE I remember one but I can't find it.

Also: am going to be messing about with my access filters a bit :)
sqbr: And yet all I can think is, this will make for a great Dreamwidth entry... (dreamwidth)
Friday, April 9th, 2010 11:34 am
So! I am now crossposting all my alias_sqbr content from dreamwidth.

The places you can get your Dr Sophie funtimes:

alias_sqbr: real life stuff, fandom, art: alias_sqbr at Dreamwidth, alias_sqbr at Livejournal

sqbr: Attempt at a safe space for discussing Serious Business: sqbr at Dreamwidth, sqbr feed at livejournal.

I haven't figured out how I'm going to organise my reading circles (there may be some adding and removing going on in the future), and am cool with people changing where I sit in their access/subscription, but if you've given access to sqbr it'd be helpful if you gave access to alias_sqbr as well.

Would those reading sqbr from the feed prefer it if I made an lj and crossposted to that instead? Comments would be disabled.
sqbr: And yet all I can think is, this will make for a great Dreamwidth entry... (dw)
Sunday, February 14th, 2010 07:25 pm
So LJ has finally crossed the line for me by not only having pop up ads which infect people's computers with a virus but infecting one of my friends in particular.

I have thus decided I will at some point swap over to cross-posting the stuff that currently goes in [livejournal.com profile] alias_sqbr from [personal profile] alias_sqbr (yes, keeping lj comments enabled).

But before I can do that I need to know: is there any easy to switch between two dreamwidth accounts? Preferably one that works in Safari.

*Tests out the crossposting footnote thing, which I only just figured out*
sqbr: Darkwing Duck in red (dw!)
Saturday, February 6th, 2010 03:52 pm
Since I just made a post and belatedly locked it, leading to at one person going "I clicked 'Read More' and it won't let me! :(": anyone want on the locked post filter who isn't? All it'll require is your immortal soul agreeing to my very reasonable policies.

If you don't want on the filter but are sad about the post: sorry! It wasn't that good anyway.

Because people are lazy:
Poll #2230 Do you agree to my commenting policy and want to be on the filter?
Open to: Registered Users, detailed results viewable to: All, participants: 17

Do you agree to my commenting policy and want to be on the filter?

View Answers

14 (87.5%)

0 (0.0%)

0 (0.0%)

2 (12.5%)


View Answers

Oh thank god, that last question was torture
6 (40.0%)

yay ticky!
10 (66.7%)

I refuse to engage in this pointless ticking
8 (53.3%)

3 (20.0%)

(nb: if it's more than a few days or so after I posted this, I probably won't notice that you added yourself, so leave a comment)
sqbr: Darkwing Duck in red (dw!)
Sunday, January 24th, 2010 09:51 am
So I don't know when it happened but reading filters seem to be working from the dropdown menu in my dw reading page, huzzah! I just went on a big reading filter reorganisation and added a few people.

Thus it seems like a good time to remind people to ask to be on my subscription filter if they're interested. It's mainly me ranting when I have too much of a headache to write a proper post, you're not missing much :) Anyone who reads this journal is welcome to be on the filter if they're willing to play by my rules, I don't have to be subscribed to you.
sqbr: I lay on the couch, suffering an out of spoons error (spoons)
Sunday, October 25th, 2009 03:16 pm
Via [community profile] access_fandom I came across the post suggestion for style documentation which alerted me to the fact that not only does a change like "make a comment" to "leave a footprint" cause people issues (especially if they're feeling brain-foggy), but even easy-to-interpret changes like "Comment here!" mess up screen navigation macros for people using certain types of readers.

So, though it pained me I have reset all of mine to the default. I may change some of them back if I feel heavily inspired to, but a lot of the changes were kind of arbitrary and silly.

(Yes, such people can always use style=mine but this way they have a chance to see the little chickens on my lj!)
sqbr: Darkwing Duck in red (dw!)
Friday, October 2nd, 2009 06:02 pm
I don't actually have any new locked posts worth reading, but comments from people not on my access list get screened and given all the new people since I last asked it's a pain to unscreen them all :)

So: if you're willing to abide by the comment policy and want to be on my access list let me know and I'll add you. Yes, even if I don't know you, am not subscribed to you, you don't give me access, etc, if it's super personal ertc I'll put it under a more specific filter.

Here's all my locked posts to test your access on. No, there isn't very many :)
sqbr: Rose and the doctor (dw?)
Thursday, October 1st, 2009 04:05 pm
I've made them. How on earth do I view them??

EDIT: Yay [personal profile] yvi, now I can do them, see the comments. I shall now go make myself a locked post with all my filters on, huzzah. (And wonder when they're going to institute the handy drop down menu. I assume it's in the works)
sqbr: pretty purple pi (I like pi!)
Saturday, August 15th, 2009 08:13 am
This is the basic stuff I assume as context when I post. The links are to extra info for the curious, I'm not going to assume people have read them!

I have a lot of social media accounts, almost always under the name sqbr.

I was born near the end of 1979.
I was born and live in Perth, Western Australia.
I'm an atheist, shading into agnostic around the edges.

Social context
I'm afab and genderfluid.
I'm white, a mix of Anglo, Eastern European and Jewish.
I have anxiety and depression.
I have chronic fatigue syndrome to the extent that I can't work, and identify as disabled. (A rundown of my health issues) I also have a lot of food intolerances, use a power wheelchair, and can't walk up stairs without a lot of pain(*).
I'm married to [livejournal.com profile] distantcam and biromantic grey asexual.
My parents are well educated lefty artist types working unskilled low-paid jobs, which makes me ambivalent about my class status.

I'm a science fiction fan, and am involved in local con-going fandom.

I draw a lot, including comics. I also make visual novels (art, writing, and coding). My fanish creative stuff can be seen at my alias_sqbr tumblr and the AO3. I also have Professional Artist And Game Developer stuff that avoid linking to my fannish persona publically but can be seen here if you're on the access list for sqbr or here for alias_sqbr.
I have a Phd in computational mathematics and love science, though I kind of burnt myself out talking about it after working in Science Communication for many years. (My maths page)


I am sometimes very bad at judging social cues or figuring out what other people are thinking.
I sometimes have difficulty replying to messages.
I have conflict anxiety, but am pretty good with calmly expressed criticism.
I like discussion and expressing my opinions which can sometimes come across as a bit combatitive.
I like most people, and am very happy for random people to join in the conversations on my blog.

I'm very absent minded, so have probably forgotten some stuff :)

(*)These last two are less relevant to my blog and more things I like to mention as often as possible so that people don't invite me for wine and cheese at the top of a flight of stairs.
sqbr: A cartoon cat saying Ham! (ham!)
Monday, August 10th, 2009 09:27 am
1) I am not going to even bother trying to answer my mail until lj stops being so flakey (this is also the reason this entirely innocuous post is posted here)

2)I am going to stop mainlining X-files. I'm not going to stop watching, but the early-90s lack of continuity is bugging me (it's pretty good for the time, but I am reminded why I didn't watch so much tv back then) and my will to work through it has been eroded by three episodes in a row whose topics would requite trigger warnings were I to discuss them. (Not that I have triggers, but it's still a type of fiction I avoid if I can. At least the parasite episodes have been spread out a bit more, and there haven't been any about zombies)

I'd read fanfic but it's all based on season 6 on :/ (It's not so much the fact I don't understand what's going on that bugs me as the fact the characters aren't the same any more)

Oh! And I've decided I want a paid dreamwidth account, if anyone who was planning on getting me a birthday present anyway wants to do so early before I get around to buying it myself *hint hint*

Speaking of which does anyone want an invite?

Hmm. And now I'm out of things to do. *looks without much enthusiasm at the giant pile of clean washing that needs sorting*
sqbr: pretty purple pi (I like pi!)
Tuesday, July 21st, 2009 11:32 am
I've had a bunch of comments recently which have been sincere and thought out and not entirely without merit, but I was really ambivalent about unscreening them since I felt they might be hurtful to some of my readers.

Thinking about it helped crystalize what I was going for from the beginning with this journal: I am not the thought police deciding what is and is not a Valid Statement. I'm just trying to make sure the content here doesn't have a hurtful effect. If a conversation will be hurtful held publically, then I shouldn't make it public, but that doesn't necessarily mean it's a Bad Conversation.

So: If you have something to say to me which is a sincere and thoughtful response to what I've said but you're worried it might go against the word or spirit of my comments policy, send it as a private message or email. If you want to discuss it with lots of people, make a post on your own journal and leave a comment with an explanation and link.

If you make a comment which I think deserves a reply but I'm not comfortable making public, I'll leave/make it screened and send you a private message.

Note that I may decide that I don't want to continue a conversation privately either: my spoons are very limited, and if it's hurtful to other people it may also be hurtful to me.
sqbr: I lay on the couch, suffering an out of spoons error (spoons)
Saturday, June 27th, 2009 09:57 am
Is that I sometimes forget to unscreen them :) This is solved automatically when I reply, but not all comments require a reply (eg if people are having a conversation between themselves)

I mean sometimes I WANT a screened comment to stay invisible until I address it, but often I don't.

So, I'm trying to get into the habit of unscreening comments the moment I get them unless I have a particular reason not to. (And so far they've all been unscreened eventually)

But if a comment of yours on a screened post seems stuck in the queue and it was something really innocuous or it's been several days, let me know and I'll either unscreen it or let you know that I'm working on it.
sqbr: A happy dragon on a pile of books (bookdragon)
Wednesday, June 24th, 2009 11:50 am
I've decided to try and approach being stuck at home as I might a holiday (of indefinite duration and limited resources :/) and so am slowly going through all the things I've been putting off for ages. It gives me a nice sense of accomplishment.

Anyway, I just went through my draft posts folder. To begin with I had 84 drafts going back to 2007, now sorted into:

  • 34 I had already posted (including a few drafts of comments)
  • One I posted right away (since it was a teeny post that probably won't get much of a reply)
  • Two I will post in a little bit when I'm sure none of my posts from the last few days are going to explode in a hurry
  • 2 about ethics
  • 3 about gender
  • 2 long rambles about my personal history that grew out of other ideas (probably won't post these :))
  • 15 about race
  • 4 about religion
  • 9 misc (polls, a discussion of allergies, other random stuff)
  • 8 I decided were crap

Next up: going through each subfolder and seeing if I can combine the various drafts into one or more posts (or additions to the "just crap" folder). Many of these are just variations on the same ideas, there were a HEAP about artistic responsibility going back to some of my earliest drafts but I think I've finally articulated my position on that so they all went into "posted".

Does anyone else do this? And yes, it is scary to think that the huge barrage of rambly crap that makes it onto my journals has already passed through a winnowing and editing process :D (Though most of my posts are written off the cuff. Like this one!)